在第九次 workshop，我被組員選出來分享了一個 critical incidence report，其實不是很 critical, anyway。裡面談到我在星加坡 Night Safari 鬧陌生人，因為他們用閃光燈拍豹，那會傷害動物的視力，甚至致盲，這個動物園已經講了又講。之所以是 critical incidence，因為我說 Even if I had strong opinions or emotions, I could easily swallow them. I'm NEVER the one who raise up my hand and say something. But this time I confronted them, very calmly actually. And after that, I felt so good, and free.
就在連我自己都以為自己從來都是這樣的時候，數學老師說話了。Do you remember the June-Fourth Massacre? We were having a special assembly in school. You were one of the few students who went up to the stage, took the mic and expressed your opinions, and you made good sense. I was very impressed and I still remember now.
我一點也沒印象。但，我卻想起那時我的確是個熱血少年。中二那年我投稿去明報自由論壇反對在大亞灣興建電廠。同年我獨個兒（雖又會和我癲？）去遮打花園參加爭取八八直選燭光晚會。其後我曾經向校方爭取搞基督徒團契。
對於這個我，我感到很陌生。不知道是哪時遺失了某種火或 courage。
我信性格和氣質是天生的。那麼，那時的我是真的還是現在的我是真的還是問錯問題？是血壓太低還是十二年前那場災難其實有把我打沉？
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